A L!ttlE B!t oF Wh!mSy

it's weird what insights a little test can reveal about a person...

i saw the quiz on my friend chito's page and for the lack of a better thing to do, decided to answer it. most of the answers were routine - everyone who knows me would know what i'm like anyway. what struck me was the thing about my being afraid of marriage.

what a statement!!!

i remember a friend using the word "commitmentphobic" to describe herself and i'm wondering, "am i that person too?". actually, i'm not so sure...

i used to love being in a relationship. it can be hard work, i know, but it can also be the light at the end of that oh-so-dark tunnel. just having someone to share "stuff" with was such a joy. but even then, i knew that i was nowhere near the "marrying stage" as some people might call it. even now at 25, which, some might consider "ancient", i still don't think i'm ready for that. there's still so much to do, so many people to meet, places to visit, dreams to fulfill...

when an ex proposed marriage aeons ago, i had to stop myself from blurting out, "are you crazy?!?!?!?!how can you want to tie the knot at this age?!?!?!?!". of course, i never said that. i didn't want to hurt him... but when i read the results of the quiz, it got me thinking...was i just making excuses then? or am i just afraid of what marriage will do to change me and the life that i have made for myself?

hmmmnnnn...

anyway, why the hell am i even thinking about this? i don't even have a boyfriend!

***pooof!****

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.